Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Back At It

Well I feel as though I am back to my old self...as much as I am going to be with this new life called motherhood.  I started back running more and more.  I've also done two 5K's, both of which I placed in my age group (cool)!  I've still got it!  Or perhaps this new "age group" that I'm in is not quite as competitive as the previous one.  I choose to believe that I've still got it!
Motherhood as a whole is wonderful!  Best thing ever!  I highly recommend it!  Lucy is 6 months old, sleeps through the night and is generally a very happy baby.  I am blessed to say the very least!  So naturally, now that everything seems to be running smoothly at home, I feel the need to shake things up.  I have a very hard time living in the moment.  It's really something that I am working very hard at.  I stay at home with Lucy, which I feel incredibly lucky to be able to do, but I can't help but feel a little inadequate for not making any money.  I know that may sound silly, but I have been working since I was 15 years old.  For the past sixteen years, I've paid my own bills.  I know a lot of women dream about being a housewife or stay-at-home mom, but when you've been independent for your entire life it's quite an adjustment.  I am constantly trying to figure out ways that I can work from home, instead of just enjoying this time in my life.  In this new year, I need to resolve to live in the moment more!  Plain and simple.
On the running front, I have a small group of gal pals that I run with every Sunday.  We are training for the Y10 in February.  I am excited, because ironically I've never done this race.  It's a tough one, not because of the distance, but because of the cold, wind and that brutal Market St. hill at the very end.  I am looking forward to it!  Other than that, I am just dreaming of Spring!  (See there I go again, not living in the moment...ugh!)